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Ep. 1: Tears And Butter

Posted on Dec 31, 2020 by Cyn City

I’m not letting 2020 get the best of me. Fuck fear! Here we gooooooo!!

Available on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, Buzzsprout, & more streaming sites to follow.

Overthinking: “No one cares”

Posted on Sep 23, 2020 by Cyn City

Me: STFU!

Anxiety told me to stop writing. That’s why I haven’t posted since the launch of this site. I don’t care about likes or comments. I’m more about wanting to reach others, who feel like me. To feel as you’re being seen and heard. Genuinely. Lovingly. Respectfully. Honestly.

The anxiety kept screaming, “Stop writing. You’re just another fat girl complaining on the internet.” I listened. Then, one after another, “they” kept asking me…”where are the site updates?”….here’s the update. I’m giving anxiety the giant middle finger. I’m going to try to be consistent. I say try because I also know myself. I can be lazy and really unmotivated at times. I can do this. I have to. This is the only way I will continue to overcome the daily struggles of the “what if’s”.

They: “Why Don’t You Show More Skin?”

Posted on Jul 24, 2020 by Cyn City

A good portion of the company that I keep around me are male or females that just have a bit more male energy. I’m more…”dude”. These sort of straight forward conversations are the norm for me.

Current day Cyn is very much a jeans, t shirt, & converse kind of gal. As for my answer? Well, in my mind I’m like…I have huge knockers, a huge butt….you aren’t already turned on by that? You need to see the entire flesh to confirm it’s there? I don’t get it. lol

My 20’s was filled with really low cut tops. Why? I thought it was sexy. Looking back, nope! I thought I needed to do that in order to try and attract male attention. I was really big but I had nice physical assets that I could still show off to appear “sexy”. Major self esteem issues. Over compensating in other areas where we feel we most lack. It also shows what kind of message women have been taught growing up. You have to physically appear sexy which usually means showing skin, to attract a man. When I did that I only attracted men who didn’t value me in any way. Within the last few years I’ve started to realize my worth. Which has now flipped my definition of what sexy is. It’s more about the mystery.